My little Angel, Bean

Little by little Life feels better. But suddenly badly happen. I still never forget the words of people's judges about you and me, my Bean. Those words are so hurtful. Please always remember that I'm very happy the very first time I found out about you. This is what I hope and I never ever regret having you in my life. I couldn't explain the feeling when I heard first heart beat and see how tiny you are. But hearing those painful words coming from the people who don't even know what we've been through is makes me angry. I couldn't able to sleep properly because of that. 

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